Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination.... and the homework..... and the incessant forwards..... and the friendships..... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes!!...... Somewhere b e t w e e n the phone calls to old friends..... And the "I miss you's" & the "I love you's"....... And the "What are we doing tonight's?"..... And somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing, growing... Somewhere b e t w e e n the classes........ And the skipping classes...... And the studying for tests....... And the pretending to study for tests....... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I forgot.......... I forgot what growing up is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry....... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy........... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart............ I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future.......... I forgot that you can't control falling in love........... And that you can't make yourself fall in love........... I learned that I can love......... I learned that it's okay to mess up......... And it's okay to ask for help......... And it's okay to feel like crud.......... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day........ I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about school isn't the Dances or the DRiNKiNG or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means taking chances........ I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about.......... I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing. And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends........ Both o l d and new......... Are the most important people to me in the world. And without them, I wouldn't be who I am today..... So this is a thank you to all of my friends. . For always being there and I love you.

exams..exams..
omg..
i only got 3 more days 2 study...
diee...
muz study hard...cannot b a slacker...
studyyyyyyyyyyyy

well well.....more than half the year has passed n so much for having a website without updating ut much at all....well...basically it's bcuz i have been really really busy these past few months....hehe....actually had holidays for 2 weeks as well...but not really holidays holidays...the 1st week i was up at palmerston north for a business course that was really really good...then the 2nd week..welll...that one basically sat at home n rested!!!!

anyway back at school already...and mock exams are comin up in a weeks time...and i guess ppl like me never change and still wait till the very last minute 2 start studying...well...just have 2 change that habit i guess!!!my real exams are in nov just b4 i come back 2 msia on the 27th...which i can't wait already....already planning stuff 2 do!!!amongst all the excitement to come back i still must alwiz remember 2 study!!

well...i guess this is my quick update here....and i should be back 2 my work!!!

omg....i am ssooooooo mad at jaques....

tell u....1stly he is so stubborn..n then he just hantam n attack ppl like ppl have no feeling whatsoever at all
so like that lorr....so now i'm thinking that if he insists that then R's are goin i'm ready 2 tell him that i'm not gonna go...i actually feel bad that i have 2 do this making him choose me or the R's but i really feel bad for ash but this moment i'm still mad at him althou this had happen on mon or tues nite....make me sleep so late saja!!
ya lorr.....jono is in the middle of all this....cuz jaqs is his fren and then summore ash is the one booking all the stuff...summore we make her change the place as well!!!that's y i dun feel nice...summore jono tells me that she's paying 4 all of us...lagi not nice...
omg....terukler...
still mad at jax

aiks..my school has now blocked the hotmail and everything included...
means no more checking mails...
uugghh..
this is iritating

haih...this is such a boring holiday..
nothing to do ler..
actually suppose 2 study 4 my mocks but then no mood at all....^_^
*sigh*if only i was back in msia.....

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Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...

Bottom-line : A person who makes me love him is actually a person who loves me more than I love him. ________________x________________________x_____________

If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.

Bottom-line :Time will tell. If he's yours he will surely come back.
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Don't throw your back to love when it's already in front of you.
Don't drive it away from you because if you do, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once residing next to you.

Bottom-line : Treasure the one who loves you! It's not easy to find a person who loves you. It's always more valuable to have a sincere heart.
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The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.
If you think something will make you. happy, GO FOR IT.
Remember that we pass this way only once.

Bottom-line : Time doesn't wait. If you think you might have found the right one, treasure the person, don't let that person get away. Don't let fear hold You back. Give it a try else you might regret later... "No one other than ourselves know what can truly make us happy."
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"Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?"
..."I'm the teardrop of the man who regrets letting a girl go..."

Bottom-line : Nobody will sympathize with a person who constantly lets chances pass by without making any efforts to salvage them. We normally don't realize how important our loved and close ones are until they leave us, and then we start regretting, which results in misery. Lost time is NEVER gained again
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***Even impossible says... I - M - POSSIBLE!!!

came back fm NZ business week yesterday....gosh..i had such a great time there...
got losta experiences...
i had a great group...n ORANGE ROCKS!!!hehe....
yeah....so we were divided into groups for most of the activities. we even had bowling, karaoke, dance, theatresports and a movie!!!we watched charlie's angels - full throtle!!

well.....apart fm that we went round palmerston north....visited business and stuff....and had a few boring talks as welll.....well..that one was kinda unaviodable....yeah..

but then....there were SCANDALS!!!hehe....what everyone was looking for and can't wait 2 hear at nite....all the whispering from the dorms!!!well......on the 1st night melanie (a chick fm my school - but get this...i dunno her at all!!!) well...she hooked up on the 1st nite with a guy fm st pats in welly here.....i mean...wow...1st nite..!!!
then after that....another chick who is a bitch...hehe...catherine..well...she's a bitch and gets on everyone's nerves. anyway..she hooked up with fish (a guy fm my group) and get this...that guy has a gf!!!!!wow wee!!!

yeah...anyway it was great...met some nice ppl there....esp some ppl fm auckland (sam, kirsty, jade - who had her 18th there, lily) and then some other ppl as well....like fm palmy itself, tauranga..and other places!!!my group kinda bonded in some ways so that was good....hope can meet up with some ppl in wellington here...that will be awesome!but then we bonded in some way that wasnt sickening like yellow which were together 24/7....welll...almost anyway...hehe..

yeah...then we had cool business advisors which some of them were fm vic. they were cool...got us lollies and helped us with ourdecison making.made me wanna go to vic as well...and join aiesec (some group that gives u exposure n opportunities like business week!)yeah...so i kinda know what i wanna do next year after this.....cuz seems interesting....but now i just dunno where 2 do it....either in melbourne or in vic here in NZ. i probably wanna do a double degree like BCA/BA n probably major in something like international business and something like that with other subjects like eco, accounting and even take up a extra language!!!!hmmm...have 2 c how...and since i'm taking a BA..then who knows?mayb i'll take a dance subject as well.....
well that one i'll really have 2 think about it...
at least now i know what i wanna do. so i just have 2 think where i wanna do it!

anyway...photos for the business week will b out soon at www.nzbw.com

its hailing 2day.....actually suppose 2 have snow cuz of the coldness....
but all we got was hail...'
the hail was so strong after that we went out 2 take some pics of the hail!!!!

hurray....
the school holidays has just begun
i'm so excited....
goin 2 palmeston north 2molo for NZ business week.........heard it's very interesting fm ppl whose frens went there b4....i really hope so.....gonna enjoy myself there!!!!!

yeah....2day n yesterday suppose 2 b very cold till it's snowing here but apparently no snow yet.....cuz they said supposedly there's gonna b the strongest southerlies in 30 years comin.....but then so far the southerlies hasn't been that strong....soo duunno lor..hopefully it wun b too cold when i'm in palmy....

i wish i was back in malaysia....
all the activites happening.
i guess it's bcuz i just read ashley's blog n there were all the exciting stuff bout her bday celebration n all that makes me miss msia even more..
imagine...if i were there....n jaques 2..if i were there alone also better ler.....if got jaques even better....
well....miss msia....miss my parents...n miss jaques soo much

just cut my hair 2day....
a bit too short...
wanted it to be longer a bit..
but anyway...cut already cannot do anything
it's not just below shoulder length
now i look much more like a small kid liao!!!!
anyway...my hair grows pretty fast...so yeah..it's ok...by the time i get back it's all grown back.
anyway...too long hair is pretty annoying as well..
oh well..