another 60 days 2 go home!!!yay!!

just cleaned up my room a bit. arranged some of the clothes in my cupboard. no lunch 4 me. wonder wut's happening. neways, i can get my own lunch. dun wanna b tooo demanding. neways, can't study now. no mood at all. actually waiting 4 the time 2 pass faster. jo n shana has gone out 2 c the jap thingy in te papa. not interested. museums???not my thing really. plus hanging up with 5th formers??no no no..haha. so here i'm stuck at home. at least i got the old old radio fm the old house working. suprise suprise. tryed 2 work it 4 the whole year n it din work. but it's working perfectly now. haih. if only i switch off the radio i can get some work done. but...what if it doesnt work again???so i'll just leave it on n dun do my work??*shrugs*

haih...now i'm stuck at home by myself. finished watching all the interesting shows on TV and now i have nothing 2 do. what an understatment. hah. anyway, everyone else had gone out 4 dinner. din wanna go as i wasn't really invited. after they were like y u not goin. oh save me the crap k? if u wanna ask me 2 come along as me properly. dun like i'm intruding on ur dinner anyway. pah.


oh..mayb i should actually get some work done. mayb aftere i finish reading ALL my mails that i'm really behind in.

yay.last day of doin the mag at school and a nice holidays 2 me. uumm..2 start studying mayb???haha

anyway, i kinda figured that i can b sometimes b a bit of a control freak. i mean, i want some stuff 2 go my way. and i'll b irritated if it doesn't.hhmmpphh.

IF I KNEW


If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.


If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.


If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.


If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.


If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.


For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.


There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"


But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.


Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.


So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,


That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.


So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear


Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

wow...these few days have been really really fruitful!!!haha...well...
yesterday n 2day had school 4 magazine ppl..finished the class photo pages n 4 sport report pages n typed out some of the crative writing stuff. at least quiet a lot done by me. well one more day 2molo!!

went to watch finding nemo yesterday. boy the movie was awesome n it was such a crack up!!i laughed n laughed. such a great movie. only if i watched it when the rest of the world watch it..which was like umm....3 months ago????talk about being behind in everything. well this country is just soooo ADVANCED..

anyway, 2day went to town and i din buy ANything. it's soo annoying that i go shopping and dun buy anything at all. thot i'll get a bag but then it din look that nice after all. i'm just itching 2 get something. not that i din get anything in porirua that day. got a new bikini, a boob tube n a pleated skirt (at last)!!! but then i still dun like window shopping. i want to ACTUALLY get something. oh well.

anyway, this weekend i really need 2 start doin stuff. and then my aussie thingy as well. suppose 2 do it like yesterday n the day b4 yesterday. but today??still nothing. oh well...muz do it 2molo or friday die die also muz do.

neway, remembered suzy's (ahem) bday yesterday!!!i'm just such a nice fren remembering ppl's bday!!!haha...made her day juz bcuz of a text!!!yay!!!i rock!!(big time)

geez...felt so much better after talkinf 2 jaques on fri nite. well..not like whole better..but just feels so much nicer being able 2 talk 2 him and straighten something out.

anyway. it's holidays already and like yesterday went 2 jville mall with cheryl. din manage 2 get anything at all. saw a bikini on fri while waiting 4 the transfer back home. thot of getting it but din look as nice when i wore it. neways cheryl said its cheaper in colorado. so will go there sometime soon. to have a look.

2day went to swim (at last!!)walked all the way 2 the pool and back!!!such an achivement!!hahaha..anyway, the water was so nice n warm in the spa..umm...actually hot!!!was so hot sitting in the spa when i got out i felt sooo dizzy!!!anyway after that was sitting in the baby pool cuz din wanna go 2 the adult pool which was much colder!

anyway....2molo b goin shopping in porirua again...yay!!since last week i had the urge 2 go shopping...and...yay..2molo i'll b goin..can't wait. gotta get some stuff...got all the new summer clothes out already.

anyway. for this holidays gotta get a list of things 2 b done. oh n school work too.not forgetting that.

ok...u wanna know what??i damn pissed with someone at the moment now. i knew u were on9 last night. how i knew???i just knew. haha. i'm smart remember??i purposely spent a long time writing a mail 2 u and what???no reply 4 me. i can understand if ur actually pissed like for sometime that we cannot have that trip that was from the beginning only problems after problems but now???not sending me any txts or writing me mails at all???i think ur looking 4 trouble anyway. so yeah. take the hint. cuz by 2molo if i dun hear fm you...well....i guess no phone call 4 u. anyway, i dun think i wanna call u anyway. since u have nothing 2 say 2 me???i just wonder how could we end up like this??if u wanna have a decent relationship i guess u just have 2 put some effort in it. anyway, it's up to u. and remember i'm getting pissed as well. so get the picture.

yay. freedom for me. no more production, no balls, no ballet exams, no ballet for another week, no tests, no more internal assesments for the whole year (double yay) and no more stress!!!haha
probably it's been a whole month that i've been stress and now....stressless!!

anyhow, 2day was the day that i passed up my last and final internal. was stress up for like 3 whole days. 1st was bcuz i couldnt fin any info. then when i found it i had 2 write this massive 1600 word essay. i mean who write eco essays???hmm..mayb i'll have to when i'm in uni...but...i hate essays. bottom line.

anyway apart fm that stupid essay, had 2 tests this week. had accounting test on tues and calc test 2day. was sooooo unprepared for both of them. studied sooo last minute like in the car on the way 2 school!!haha....anyway, luckily managed 2 answer them...but i wun wanna know the results!!

anyway...2 more school days b4 the holidays. wanna go shopping and celebrate my no stress period cuz it wun last 4 long as come the new term, and the bursary will b up soon enough!!!anyway, holidays soon!!!althou have 2 go 2 school 4 magazine...but it's still fab!!haha yay!!i'm just so happie!

oh apparently the last nite of production had a full house. whatever

well well....production now is over. thank goodness for that. was a sucessful one. i thot it was pretty interesting altou we din get full house audience. anyway, the last nite was the best audience cheering n stuffs. had a good time anyway. lurrve performing!!!

anyway, noow it's back 2 serious work 4 me b4 the holidays next week. i got heaps of work 2 catch up on so better starto doin it lor.
1st i have my eco assignment which is worth 8%. then after that i have an acconting test n calculus test. which is gonna b bad since i am so behind n dunno wut is happening in class!!!geez!!!apart fm that also got a chem assingment 2 do as well....anyway, hopefully i'll b able 2 catch up tis weekend starting 1st wit my eco. most important!!!

hiya. thot i'll go watch finding nemo yesterday but then stupid broadmeadows no transprt home after 6 somethng so obviously cannot go n watch if not i'll b stranded. it's so dumb that i cannot go out bcuz of transpoort probs cuz last time all i had 2 do was ask mummy 2 pick me up or daddy. haih. not fun anymore. then like the produnction alwiz have 2 feel bad 4 making uncle kim comin all the way 2 school 2 pick me up. if only i could drive now. sheesh. this sucks big time.

haih...very busy these few days
2day had production practice. after got back fm school went straight over 2 aunty thim tai's place 2 sew my costume. a bit last minute but kinda glad i din sew it earlier cuz now we're changing the design. gosh i tell u....the design was like...omg..like rubish bag like that. seriously. i might as well cut up a rubish bag n it'll look the same. at least now we changed the design so it's better. dunno what the 6th form gal who design the sress was doin. the most dreadful costume i've ever saw. the whole production has ugly costumes. we'll all look dumb n stupid. neways, production is this tues, wed n thurs!!!after that no more school on sunday 4 me EVER!!!in my whole lifetime. even if i wanted 2 go 2 school on a sunday...i dun really think that'll b possible anymore. anyway...so much for that. not that i enjoy it anyway.
mayb i'll take a picture of my rubish bag. haha.looks a bit like stage challenge costume. just more rubish bagish. *rolls eyes*

enough bout production. talked 2 jax yesterday. actually i called him 2 thank him. well....wish that we could talk more often. feel so distant nowadays. like i dun even know him anymore. well what would happen next year if i decide 2 stay here. i feel bad that he's spending so much money 2 go back n i'm away like half of the time n then i might actually have 2 break up with him eventually. n he's comin back to c ME!!!gosh...this is not good. what am i gonna do???i dun wanna break up wit him not now not in the near future. but i think this is not fair 2 him already. unless i go 2 aussie 2 study. but that wun b fair 2 me as now i dun even think there's any suitable courses 4 me there.HELP.

SLOW DANCE
>
> Have you ever watched kids
>
> On a merry-go-round?
>
> Or listened to the rain
>
> Slapping on the ground?
>
> Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
>
> Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
>
> You better slow down.
>
> Don't dance so fast.
>
> Time is short.
>
> The music won't last.
>
> Do you run through each day
>
> On the fly?
>
> When you ask How are you?
>
> Do you hear the reply?
>
> When the day is done
>
> Do you lie in your bed
>
> With the next hundred chores
>
> Running through your head?
>
> You'd better slow down
>
> Don't dance so fast.
>
> Time is short.
>
> The music won't last.
>
> Ever told your child,
>
> We'll do it tomorrow?
>
> And in your haste,
>
> Not see his sorrow?
>
> Ever lost touch,
>
> Let a good friendship die
>
> Cause you never had time
>
> To call and say,"hi"
>
> You'd better slow down.
>
> Don't dance so fast.
>
> Time is short.
>
> The music won't last.
>
> When you run so fast to get somewhere
>
> You miss half the fun of getting there.
>
> When you worry and hurry through your day,
>
> It is like an unopened gift....
>
> Thrown away.
>
> Life is not a race.
>
> Do take it slower
>
> Hear the music
>
> Before the song is over.

yay!!!got my ballet results back 2day...
I GOT COMMENDED!!!hurrah
better than my last exam tho
but then if i did my exam better....then i'll have got a better mark..
anyway..i'm thankful that i passed...and passed more than just passed
so now...next goal....gd 6 ballet exam in another 3 weeks??

got my photos developped 2day...(finally)
not really many photos tho.
went to the ball photographers place after school 2day
got such a shock that they r charging 16.50 per photo. what a rip off!!anyway..i'm jsut gonna hantam the ball commitees for using that photographer as it could b 2 per photo if they used the old photographer..
now i have soo little photos...=(

wow...ballet exam over....well..it was ok. i think i caould actually have done better than i did. hopefuly i passed. i dun really care even if i just passed on the border line. as long as i pass. anyway thank goodness it's all over and i'm now doin intermediate ballet!!!yay!!!but then it's so hard i'm already sore....after 2 classes...*blek*.jo's mum gave me flowers after the exam cuz jo went for the exam wime...was soo pretty. took a photo n send it 2 mum...was just really really pretty and those ppl gave daffodils wit the ribbon they use to tie it (mayb cuz of daffodil day)

anyway...friday was study at vic day. mayb i'll end up goin 2 vic after all...well who knows rite???asked jaques 2 send the book also till now never hear fm him already. anyway, saw many ppl fm business week there. actually i think i kinda like vic. at least there'll b ppl i know who's goin there....*shrugs*

and...well...THE BALL!!!the story....well...it was good....something like my prom in msia. nothin much special bout it. anyway, they had pro photographers there 2 take pics so that was great. then we had the dance floor all nite. that was the thing that i thot was not so good cuz ppl din even get 2 sit down 2 have proper meal. everyone was either eating ler or dancing or taking pics...kinda disorganized. anyway.... it was great compared 2 the after party. it was boring..just more dancing n heaps of drunk ppl...(not me) by the time i got home.....ZzzZZZZZzz!!!haha

oh yea....got m y hair coloured 4 the ball...got red highlights..pretty cool...got losta compliments already!!then got my hair done up as welll.....altogether $70!!!(of course wit a discount fm aunty faridah -- mum;s fren)
anyway...calculated all that i;ve spend 4 the ball....i think it's almost 200 not even getting a dress n shoes!!!shocking ler
here goes:.....
ball tics 65
after ball tics 15
hair 70
transport 2 get hair done (includes taxi fm jville) at least 10
make up 40
necklace 15 - fm glassons after that ended getting a top $40

not even adding the time spend doin my nails (more like whole morning), photo developing....etc....this is such a costly event...

not gonna get so many things for my unis ball...promise