i need a new job

i FINALLY made up my mind. and i just put in my resignation letter today at work. means the end of pagani.
and most importantly, pagani discounts. that is what i think i'll miss the most.

so last day 28th feb..

anyway, apart from the discounts, there's nothing much really to look forward to. theres crap pay, stupid hours (or rather lack thereof), stupid on-call times, messy shop, standing for the whole day, and most of all, im just bored now, no challenge at all. boohoo...so much for working in retail..

but on the bright side (see im learning how to be positive, not a pessimists anymore) ive finally got some real experience, a real job. woohoo....just too bad it din last too long

hope i get my holiday pay tho, cuz ive been working less than a yr

oh well...time to move on. just din realise moving on could be so hard sometimes.

been ages

i jsut realised i started this blog ages ago...was looking thru some of my past archives...and decided although some of it sounds rather childish (i was 16 when i started this anyway) but my style of complaining and rantings have not changed one bit.

the start of this blog kinda coincided with coming back to NZ. and i guess over the 3 yrs ive been writing here losta stuff have changed. things change. circumstances change. and i realised too people do change. although when i see people i havnt seen for ages, although we both could have changed in out own little way, we still connect in the same way we did when we last saw each other. its really pretty amazing.

anyway, reading other people's blog too made me realise that life does go on and stuff happens to others too. lots are moving on to a different stage of life and stuff like that. just that im not sure whether I am ready to. or as a matter of fact will i ever be ready. thot i discovered and learnt a lot over the past few years but there's just so much out there that i still have to find out....

summer

really when i think abt it, there's only a month left to summer holidays and i dun even think i accomplished anything yet. ive been super slack which involves not studying, not going to class, not asking for more hours at work. darnnnnnn im wasting my whole life away again...

anyway, i think im gonna go crazy soon from exercising too much self control. basically this whole place is on sale now, or rather having their final sales before school starts again, and argghhh...there's so much i wanna buy buy buy....but i gotta control myself and only buy what i really need. or unless there is a very very very good bargain i spse...

i feel like spending...mostly spending to make me feel a little better i spse. somehow when i get bored i feel like shopping...or mayb its more like depressed remedy or smtg...

i know im a shopaholic.

anyway, my exam for accy222 is in abt 2 weeks plus time. heaps to catch up on as ive been pretty much wagging the entire course. think i have made it to abt like 10 classes so far.....lol well hopefully i do good or else i'll pretty much stuff up my chance of getting a class to tutor.....

job hunting going real slowly. i really feel like putting in my resignation letter asap...but then i will have no money to spend. and i'll b even a sadder girl than my current condition.

latest goal is to spend less on food. dun know how long i'll keep that up to....but i must remember with every 10 buck meal, i can save up and go shopping and possibly buy a singlet or smtg with 10 bucks. omg...supre sale is on...i cant wait till they have like buy 2 one free thingy again....like last yr. makes my $$$$ go very far =))

my 20th coming up soon....the BIG2....geez im getting old..prob having something small so i can hav a bigger 21st!!!!!

latest update

seems that every summer im sorta on a hiatus for my blog. truth is that there is no such thing as a hiatus (for my blog anyway), just seems that every summer i have heaps of stuff to occupy myself...that i have hardly any time for latest updates.

time now is 1.04am am darn sleepy and hav absolutely no idea why im online apart from waiting for jax's reply on msn. yes, he left today back home and i am now jax-less. sad, after having a whole month half plus together with him.

gonna b a boring next 4 weeks or so till uni reopens and i'll b busy again with study. esther is going back tmr as well, so that means even less ppl ard....

just got a txt saying jax com is stuffed..

so gonna crash instantaneously