...i can do all things thru Christ who strengths me

I am gonna believe that.

Its gonna be like a long next 5 weeks. Long as in no sleep, gonna put up with long long nights

And im dreading it already.

*deep breaths*

Swear im gonna breakdown sometime within the next 5 weeks.

I just wish it was all over now. exams and honours.

my theological perspective

You scored as Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan. You are an evangelical in the Wesleyan tradition. You believe that God's grace enables you to choose to believe in him, even though you yourself are totally depraved. The gift of the Holy Spirit gives you assurance of your salvation, and he also enables you to live the life of obedience to which God has called us. You are influenced heavly by John Wesley and the Methodists.

Evangelical Holiness/Wesleyan 79% Classical Liberal 54% Emergent/Postmodern 54% Neo orthodox 46% Fundamentalist 43% Charismatic/Pentecostal 43% Reformed Evangelical 36% Modern Liberal 32% Roman Catholic 25% What's your theological worldview? created with QuizFarm.com

hmm...its quite funny that the quiz came out with this. i actually think its pretty accurate. however, currently im in a charismatic/pentecostal church.....does that mean its style doesnt really suit me? ive asked myself this question a few times before...and YES, i am still searching for the answer.

i want...

to see Christina Aguilera in concert!!!!

problem is the tics are abt 100 - 150 bucks....and it is up in AUckland...and it is kinda during uni time..so means skipping classes, spending money on tics and also spending more money to go up to auckland =((

hmm...actually its the first week back of uni after the holidays.

i want to go....will be so so so cool...

10 simple but effective ways to procrastinate

1) clean the room, house, toilet....
2) watch tv
3) cook nice yummy food
4) read the newspaper
5) check out people on facebook/friendster/bebo..those networking things
6) take a good run [exercise is important!]
7) start chatting (and initiating conversations) on msn
8) reply emails that you should have replied weeks ago
9) read people's blogs
10)....post an entry on your blog

towards the end of the 'break'

i reakon my blogs have been sounding real stressed out. hard out stressed.

anyway. not that im not stressing anymore, I still am. 7000 words due next week on tax avoidance and im only on exactly 1000 words. not even 1000 proper words. 1000 words in point form of what i wanna talk about in the essay. this is gonna be a long weekend/week. on the positive side, i am abt 15% done.

studies aside.....i've got awesome news =))

i got offered a job, a graduate job *jess does a little celebration dance* so happy when they called me yesterday morning.

so yay. and since its pretty much what i want, i guess i dont have to stress anymore about going thru the whole recruitment process. just need to do a few calls on monday, send off my contract and that would be it for the year. *grins*

would have to say..thank God for listening to my prayers and also giving me all the strength to go thru recruiment even though i was the sickest cat that i could hav been over the past two weeks...=))

now i have more time to fill my day by thinking about my research topic *rolls eyes*

yawn

i am procrastinating again

when im working on blogs, reading blogs, visiting random sites, those are all signs of an assignment due for jess

i really really hate essays too

just feeling real tired of the same old routine, seriously need to do smtg exciting or else i'll die from boredom soon

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

just bored

ignore me-

arghhhhhh

i hate graduate recruitment. i really hate graduate recruitment.

it screws up my holidays, it stresses me out.....arghhh

i need to stress abt getting a job - that is on top of stressing for honours
the normal person only stresses about graduate recruitment. less things to think about, able to concentrate on one thing at a time.

stupid interviews super screws up all my plans...but yet i have to accomodate as if i want a job, i cant be too picky.....

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i knew one of the companies will screw my schedule up. and my predicting ability is 101% accurate.

i need to take some stress pills soon

also: critique due tmr (double arghhhhh)

im drugged

this easter weekend has a number of 1sts
- first time to see a doctor in an after hours clinic
- first time taking a blood test (and also second time within a day)
- first time taking so many drugs (OK - actually prescription medicine, whatever)
- first time being ableto swollow tablets bigger than those tiny mini ones
- first time i felt so sick that i had to go to the hospital
- first time i had an ultrascan

ok. many firsts, im sure there's more but ah well..to lazy to think of more. basically i felt like dying and rippng my stomach outta my body. seriously. and i thot i might hav got appendicites or smtg. but noooooo...thank god for that it was just gastric pain, but i seriously wanted to cry...so bad, never had got gastric pain that bad till now...which lasted for wayyy too long too


so went to the hospital in the wee hours of morning, cuz i basically couldnt stand the pain anymore, was like the worst pain on earth. doc did a whole lot of tests in the hospital and they gave me more painkillers and all those too....

anyway...now i have heaps of medicine to accompany me now. i think i had more medicine in just 2 days than i had in like 5 years..and im not aggegerating, as i hate medicine and usually just wait for me to get better (while drinking heaps of H2O)...but this time, i really cant stand the pain no more..

my tablets that are drugging me........

the easter holidays

well well...easter is here round the corner...and for the first time in 3 years...im not at easter camp. kinda wanted to go, but at the same time wanted some time to myself to just do nothing and sit at home bumming on the computer, blogger, and facebook

anyway...i guess not going was kinda a good decision overall seeing that now im sick to the stomach. LITERALLY. had this abdominal pain since early thurs...but now its so bad i actually went to see the doctor. and jess doesnt like seeing doctors and believes in just waiting for it to get better. worse still...its the hols this weekend...and the only clinic open is the after hours one which i had to pay so much more just to see the doc.

anyway....doc couldnt really help either...and there are no symtomps apart from the stomach aching like mad. i also dunno how to explain how it feels....just that i cant sleep, dont feel hungry, cant do anything. such a waste of my perfect weather holidays

oh well...at least i can console myself with the time i can sit at home and sleep i guess. not that its good sleep tho. at least being bed ridden helps me rest and not think abt honours i guess

arggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i want the pain to go away.

i am gonna start drugging myself soon...